my mom tells me I should open up more to my stepdad because he's definitely there for me and my real dad would be happy since he's not alive to be a father figure
I never had a positive father figure
I just had 2 adoptive parents who hated me
I don't feel comfortable opening up to my stepdad even tho I know he's a good person
It doesn't feel right
And a part of me feels like I don't deserve to because he has 3 kids of his own, one of which is living with us
I don't want him to think I'm trying to steal his dad or something
Mom says my stepdad cares about me
But I don't understand why
I don't understand why he should care about me when I'm not his son
I'm not his responsibility
He has nothing to gain from me
I don't understand why he would love me
There's no reason to